and that's how i decided my life.......

sunday 15 feb 2009 night, i filled up the employment pass form, checked all the documents that i needed to bring to MOE, placed them all in a white enveloped, sealed and addressed to the recruitment unit of MOE. happy, satisfied with my decision and thought that it's finally all over. slept well.

monday 8am, took the mrt to MOE with the white envelope in my hands. just before i hand it in, i thought, maybe i should try to defer the offer first (so that i can do my masters), even if they don't accept, there's no harm trying, i'd hand in the envelope as if i'd never asked anything.......as corny as it may sound, i ultimately want to be a teacher.......

and yes, that changed everything, totally.......

i was bounced from one security post to another and then back to the same one, they just don't let me in.......all i needed was just to talk to a recruitment officer, ok, i understand, it's for security reasons......and i was finally bounced to the customer service centre. well, i must say that the people there are nice, the lady phoned the recruitment unit, asked a few questions about deferment of the offer, and yea, she said it's not possible to defer, and she finally asked whether is there a possibility of meeting an officer. NO was the answer.

i stood at one corner for about 1o mins. maybe it was the feeling of being bounced, maybe it was the refusal of being met, maybe........and in that 10mins, i tore open the white envelope, took out just the acknowledgement slip, cancelled the part where i agree to accept the post and ticked the other and handed it in.

and yes, i'm going to switzerland in september.

decision time needed: 10mins (inclusive of actions taken)

recession?

about a few weeks/months ago, i was rather worried......seriously, which graduating undergrad wouldn't? recession, my friend, recession........even the hawker stall auntie is fearful that business may not be good........and because i was kiasu (ok la, am still very kiasu), i applied for a teaching position in moe as well as a scholarship to do my MSc in switzerland........

and yes, u've guessed it.........

i got both and the deadlines to accept the offers are, uncannily on the same day, the day that i'd probably remember for the rest of my life: 17 feb 2009

i would be deciding how i'd live for the rest of my life in the next 6 days........

oh God, pls advise.........